24/5/2012

Today is the day for my Business Studies Paper 2 examination

Yesterday whole night I didn't sleep

Ok, most of you sure will think that I burned midnight oil and studied like hell

But the answer is I didn't study at all coz I'm watching Taiwan variety shows until 4.30a.m.  and then only start pick up the books and study until 6.00a.m.

Hahahahahahahaha..I know this is very terrible

While the others are studying, I'm watching shows and only studied for 1 hour 30 minutes :P

Cannot blame me leh, blame the variety shows why they're so interesting until I can't get my ass off from the computer :P

But in today's exam, I'm quite satisfy

QUITE only, not VERY

I know that if I'm working my ass up to study instead of watching something that is not related to the exam, I can do even better

But I already did my best to stop watching those shows at 4.30a.m. and pick up books to study

That's the best I can do..hahahahahahahahaha :P

I already decided that I'm not going to study oversea even though this is my biggest dream ever

I always wanted to study in a foreign country where I'm surrounded by a lot of peoples from the other country, just like in those dramas

But reality is always a reality

First of all, I have my own house here and if I'm going to study abroad, I might need to rent a room or maybe share the room with a roommate

This is definitely not what I want because if I'm sharing a room with others, I will totally lose my private life and everything that I do will be seen by the roommate.

For example, if I want to sleep early and the roommate doesn't want to sleep that early, then this might disturb me sleeping coz I prefer to sleep with the lights off.

Besides, when I want to watch porn and masturbate, it will be very troublesome for me because the roommate is there. I might have to take my laptop into the toilet and this will definitely spoil my mood

Unless my roommate is gay then he might gives me a blowjob or having sex with me then its different story la..hahahahahahaha :D

I will have to kinda "rely" on the house owner in which I will totally lose my freedom

I like to sing and shout in home and I will definitely can't do these there

And I also can't bring friends home whenever I like

The other thing is I have my own car here and I can travel wherever and whenever I like

If I'm studying oversea, for sure I can't bring my car together, so I have to rely on public transportation which is also very troublesome for me because I dislike waiting

And there's limitation on the time and location that I can to travel because public transportation will not cover all places and will not available for me 24/7

Money is also a problem for me as the currencies are different

My friend who did went to oversea and study told me that I need to prepare at least RM5k per month for daily expenses excludes rent

RM5k per month is already enough for me to enjoy my life as a little prince in here

If I'm can live freely like a little prince in my own country, what for I want to suffer myself in foreign country?

And of course the someone of mine is still staying here, so I'm not willing to go yet ❤

However, going to oversea and live there is always my dream

But I'm not going to make it real during my study time

I will acchieve this step by step

I have to get my law degree first

And then I will start working and keeping money

If I got enough money and experiences in my career

I can easily apply to work in oversea and hence stay there

By this, I will not suffer that much

Because as a lawyer, my salary will not low

I can provide a better life for myself there.

Oh yea, forget to mention that my keep fit plan is officially started AGAIN by today

I know many of you had listen to this for like 934893487 times

Actually I do lose some weight a few weeks ago

But I gain back those weight fml :'(

See laaaa, I cannot let myself to relax even a bit

If I do, I will gain back all those weight that I lost easily

Idk why but this is not fair coz some peoples eat a lot like gorilla everyday

And yet they are still good in shape

But I'm totally different, I eat a little bit extra and then the weight will back to visit me again :'(
I guess I have to work real hard to slim down :(

Anyway, Good Luck :)

I love driving at night because I love to see the changes of the city lights :)

17/5/2012

Its 17 May 2012 already

Which means that I'm officially 19 years and 1 month old

Fuck the world, how come the time can pass so fast one

I really can't believe 1 month passed by like that only

It just like eating, sleeping, shitting and the time gone :/

And I really can't and don't want to imagine that 11 months more I'm going to be 20 years old wtf!!! :'(

Last time when I'm still below 18y/o and still living in my hometown and still got a little bit orang kampung minded

I used to think that education is everything in our life if we want to success

After kintergarden we must go to primary school and then secondary school

And we must get a straight A's in SPM and after that, we have to get our ass up IMMEDIATELY and find a college or university and continue our tertiary education

The battle is still haven't ended yet, we have to work really hard and go to oversea and continue study

Then we must study hard in oversea and get a first class results

Finally graduated and IMMEDIATELY get a white collar job and earn a lot of money

All these have to be in continue form, cannot stop, 1 year also cannot!!!

This is what I used to think before this

But when I came to KL last year, I saw a lot of new things that I will never experience in my hometown

I started to ask myself, if I do what I used to think, doesn't that will make me very tired?

Doesn't that will make me lose the opportunities to enjoy my young times, my teenager times?

And the answer that I give myself is a YES!!!

I started to realise that in order to success in life, there's not a MUST to only rely on education

Certain people can still success and earn a lot of money without education but of course they need opportunities and talents.

When the other people is enjoying with their friends outside there, I'm still facing the books and study for the exam in order to get the best certificate in education

When the other people is enjoying with their love, I'm still giving the same bullshit reason that I have to concentrate on study and only will start a relationship after I had success

I started to realise that when the time had passed, it won't come back

When I'm 30y/o, I won't enjoy as crazy as I will when I'm 18y/o

But I can still manage to study what I can study when I'm 18y/o in the age of 30y/o

My lecturer once told me,

Why we have to rush rush and rush until we lose a lot of beautiful things?

Why don't we slow down our steps and enjoy as much as possible when we're still young?

Most Asian, especially Chinese, they're very kia su (scare to lose)

They like to do anything and everything in one time

I admit that I'm one of them too BUT only in previous, not now.

Going to UK and study is always my dream

But I have to bow to the reality that its not easy to get it

Its need a solid determination which I think I don't have because I still want to enjoy my young times

And its very expensive to go there too

One of my friend who studied in UK told me that he needs 1k pound per month for daily expenses only and this still haven’t includes the rent

This means that I need at least RM5k per month in order to survive in UK

I know most of people will said;

"There's a thing called scholarship and you can work part-time there"

I said;

"I still want to enjoy teenager times and I don't have that much time to study everyday. I don't want to rush like hell when at the end I'm still reaching the same destination."

I know its kinda stupid to think like this but I'm sure that I will not be happy if I wasted my young times just on education

So I decide that I will still study but not as hardcore as I used to be last time

I will slow down my steps and perhaps take a short break from study

Then go to work and expand my social circle and enjoy my times with friends

And continue to study when I feel that its time for me to pick the books up again

I only young once, when the time had gone, it won't come back.

Good luck ❤

2/5/2012

Harlooooo, long time no see
I had been stopped posting blog for more then 1 month

Because a lot of things happen recently until I also don't know what actually is happening

But one of it is my exam is coming soon fuck the world

And its on next Wednesday fuck the world again

My preparation for the exam is quite slow

Like a tortoise :'(

Last time I used to say I want to study 1 or 2 hours per day but its failed

I have to admit that I'm a lazy bum bum that like to delay things

I also don't know why >.<

This exam will last for 1 month and 5 days

Which means that after this 1 month and 5 days

I'm going to be freeeeeee..yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

And I will have a 3 months holiday before my degree starts..yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!

But actually I have an idea in my mind that I would like to take a 1 year break before I start my 3 years degree

Coz I'm really tired of study

After kintergarden I direct goes to primary school and then secondary school

My SPM examination ended on December 2010

Then I started my A-Level in January 2011

Which means that I only take a break less than 1 month

I'm getting tired

I know most of the peoples who know me will say, "WTF?!!! You doesn't really go to class everyday and you said you're tired of study"

Ok, I can't deny this and I also know about this

But I'm really tired of study

No motivation at all

Perhaps maybe I will use this 1 year break go out working and know more friends without any study pressures

And relax myself

I know this is kinda stupid

My friend had scolded me on this too

But………..I don't know laaaaaaa

After the 3 months holiday only decide how :)

When a person getting older, automatically their stamina will decreasing like aeroplane tarak minyak and drop into the sea

Last time when I'm younger I can study at least 8-10 chapters  in a day

Sometimes more than that

But now, cannot ady

The most is up to 3 chapters

I don't know whether because I'm getting older or I lost my motivation on study

Seriously………I DON'T KNOW :'(

Harrrr??? What??? How old am I???

Oh, I'm in sweet 19y/o

What do you mean by WTF?!!! You're only 19y/o and you say that you're getting old

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

But last year I used to be sweet 18y/o but now I'm sweet 19y/o

Older also what :P

Ok, I'm going to stop here

Remember to follow my blog eventhough I'm not updating it as frequent as I used to be last time

Coz I'm getting older and my stamina is decreasing :P

Good luck ❤

My sex dream

This is going to be a little bit 18x post

So if you're still a little children with a superb innocent mind *ahemmm…like me*

Please don't read, but I know you will still read coz human always like to do something that they shouldn't do AND no one can resist 18x stuff =P

So, enjoy!!!

I had 2 dream continuosly the same and its about SEX last night

And the one who had sex with me is one of my friend, WTF!!! =.="

Don't ask me why coz I also don't know =P

First dream, I was going to find my friend, ABC, who is going to be my sex partner in that dream

After that, I went to ABC's room and found that nobody there

Then I sit down and rest

Suddenly ABC appear don't know from where with no clothes, I mean really that no clothes at all

Then start all those romance romance stuff, just romance!!!

Haven't start to have sex yet

Then I woke up!!! I know its quite potong stim =.="

After that I feel I'm like a pervert, why the fuck I can have a dream like this and the one is my friend somemore

Ok, then I lie down and hug my bolster tight tight and sleep again.

Second dream, in this dream, no more all that romance romance stuff

This time direct to the sex part

Both of us are doing all that you-know-what

And without condom somemore, WTF!!!

We did that for quite a long time but I forget about the time

Haiya, normally happy hours is passing like a rocket

Hahahahahahahahahahahaha

After finish the you-know-what, both of us lie on the bed and hug hug kiss kiss each other

And finally I woke up!!! =/

Nah nah nah, I warned you in the beginning of this post that this is going to be a little bit 18x

You're the one that want to scroll down and read

So don't blame me on writing disgusting stuff

Blame yourself!!! Who ask you so horny?!!

Last time I heard from others that when you dream someone when you're sleeping

That means the someone is missing you or thinking about you

Oi, is that means YOU always think to have sex with me?!!

You don't think I don't know!!!

Now Mr. Dream tell me already =P

Ok la, maybe next time when I meet with ABC in real life

I guess I'm going to be slutty a little bit

Hey hey hey, don't think so much!!!

I just want to test whether ABC got think to have sex with me or not

If yes, means that the theory is correct

If no, means that the thory is a bullshit created by old people to bluff youngster make them syok sendiri =P

Maybe some peoples will say that, "Eh common sense also know its not true la, don't so superstitious can or not?"

But you know what?

Little children always have a very innocent mind

They always believe interesting facts told by others

What do you mean by, OMG you dreamt about this and you say you're innocent?!!

I can't control my dream ok?!!

But that doesn't mean I'm not innocent

I'm still a little innocent angel baby prince boy!!!

Next time I'm going to ask ABC this question =P

I'm scare of losing somebody

Everyone that read this for a reason, that is to busy body about my love life

Ok laaa, I admit that I'm also very busy body about other's love life

When I meet with a friend that 2 thousand years no meet already, the first thing I ask is "Eh, got boyfriend/girlfriend ah?"

But their answer always make me dissapointed, with a "YES" and a happy smile face

Yea, I'm jealous they can find a companion and I'm still forever alone L

Ok, back to the topic

I don't know why I sometimes I got kind of lonely and sad feeling

When I suddenly wake up in the middle of night then I looked around my surrounding, which normally is dark unless I forget to switch off the lights, then I will feel very lonely and sad, sometimes I cried :'(

Or………………

I'm walking to a place, when I reach a particular place or see a particular thing, I will feel the loneliness and sadness also

Or………………

Even when I'm doing nothing, these feeling come automatically

I hate this feeling,this feeling, this feeling……………….. :'(

What do you mean by, OMG?!!! You cried because of this small thing??? Are you a guy???

A guy cannot cry is it? A guy cannot have their own emotion is it?

If your answer is a yes, then ask God why created tear ducts inside guy's eyes.

AND…………..FUCK YOU!!!

Just now when I'm having my nice nap because recently I don't have enough sleep

Seriously lack of sleep until to the max

So when I wake up, I look at my room

I don't know why I feel extra sad and extra lonely

Perhaps have the feeling of crying too :'(

Then I told my crazy bitchy friends about this

One of them told me this is a natural phenomena when you're loving someone but the someone is not yours

So you will feel unsecure and scare will lose that person

What she say is so damn fucking true!!!

Yea, I'm scare of losing someone that are not belong to me :'(

She also experienced this when her boyfriend is not with her

But she's a lot better than me lo

At least she has a lover but I don't have leh :'(

At least when she's sad or lonely she can tell her boyfriend and I'm pretty sure her boyfriend will comfort her

But what I can do is just stare at the wall and thinking how to commit suicide if I can't find a companion :'(

 I've came with 2 ways to commit suicide and these confirm won't make me look so ugly when I die and its painless.

1) Sleep inside car

Dress nicely, open the air-cond and close all the window and sleep inside it

2) Buy some injection stuff from doctor

Dress nicely of course, then inject the medicine into body

p/s-If you going to do this, don't tell anyone that you learnt it from here.

One of my ji mui always tell me that the someone sure will come one

But just the matter of time only

I don't think so lo

I think my someone had being bang by monorail or lrt or car when on the way coming to find me

If not why so long already still haven't appear???

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Choi choi choi

Just joking laaaaaa..LOL

To my future's someone,

If you see this, just ignore it, I love you so much and you know it,

I know you're not being bang by monorail or lrt or car coz if you really bang by those, you will not able to see this also =P

Eh, just joking har

Don't bang my someone har I tell you

If not I'm going to burn your office

LOL

At first I think that I'm going to write a sad and sentimental post about this topic

But I don't know what's wrong with me and end up this post like this =.="

Oi, by the way I'm still very serious with my tittle above

I'm scare of losing someeeeebodieeeeeeee :'(

Really scare………………………………

I miss you so badly, pls come to me now :'(

5/2/2012

1 month over already

Its February 2012 now

And I'm still the same

Still so fat, so lazy, so cute, so handsome

Time, why you pass so fast?

Can you slow down a little bit so that I got enough time to change?

Last time I said that I want to study 2 hours per day

And until today I didn't study a single shit

Fuck. My. Life =.=

Someone pls come and bang my head on the wall and slap me

I think I'm going to wash plates in KFC or McD

And die forever alone beside the street or under the bridge without coffin somemore

Coz I got no money to buy a coffin :'(

I just don't know why I just can't take the book and start study like what I did last time

Once I see the book I direct feel very sleepy

When I'm insomnia at night, I won't feel sleepy pula when I see the books

But at that time I also no mood study la

If I'm studying that time, confirm I got brain cancer and going to die soon

Eh I really feel very weird leh

Its already Februari!!! One month already pass!!!

So sim tia you know that I'm going to be 19 years old in 2 more months :'(

And after that 20..21..22..23..24 years old

I want to stay forever 18 years old laaa

Being old very sad you know?!!!

And Valentine's Day is coming soon

Why this day must exist leh?

Very sienz leh when saw someone posting on Facebook asking "What should I buy for my bf/gf this valentine?"

Eh, fuck you laaaa

You cannot sit down diam diam and think yourself one ah?

Is it after I say what to buy, then you will follow what I say?

Ok!!!

Go and buy a big box, then go catch 1000 cockroaches, then put inside the box and wrap it nicely, add a butterfly ribbon on it somemore so that it looks luxury a little bit

Hahahahahahahahahaha, just joking :)

Anyway, Happy Valentine's Day

Hope you will be come daddy or mommy in November 2012

28/1/2012

I'm back to Kualalalalala Lumpur already J

I went back to my hometown for 7 days

Ngam ngam 1 week

In this 1 week, I'm satisfy with my days

Hanging out together with friends, gambling, talk cock sing song, laugh at each other, see each other's face, eat together, sing karaoke, go friends' home

But hor the thing that I angry the most is the chee cheong fun shop too good business liao

Why I angry? Because each time I want go buy also so many peoples

And have to queue for so long, and ended up I didn't buy a single thing because I'm lazy to queue =.="

Beside this, I also very angry that the Sg. Nibong's char keow teow no open stall :/

Ok, don't talk about unhappy things J

Talk about happy things J

This time go back hometown meet with a lot of secondary school's friends that didn't meet for quite a long time

I found that hor, they didn't change a lot also

Still the same old pattern

But good la, at least I can still recognise your face and play together J

I don't really like those people who will feel shy or awkard when meet with old friends

Eh come on la, I didn't ask you to open your clothes and run naked-ly around the town

You so shy for what?

I also didn't ask how long is your penis or how big is your boobs

You so awkard for what?

But most of them, I mean MOST, are quite nice

We can get along very well after 2 seconds see-ing each other J

I'm pretty sure I will miss the time when we go Yyan's home gambling continuously for 2 days until around 2-3a.m.

After that we went to yam cha J

For me, in the process of gamble, I don't really care how much I win or how much I lose

Not because I'm rich but I like the time when we're chatting and laughing

Because as what the others say, the world is going to end this year

And the earth is going to explode or falling down into a big dark hole

So we got no more chance to celebrate Chinese New Year together next year

And sit together chatting gambling laughing anymore

But even if the world is not going to end this year

I also don't know what's going to happen next year

Maybe I'm going to other place? Or most of them didn't go back hometown?

Who knows right?

So I'm really appreaciate the time when we're together J

I don't know how about the others la

Maybe they're money face and keep on thinking to win a lot of money

I know most of you all say that I tak tau malu still eat kiddy meals, but a kid eat kiddy meals nothing wrong right, Mr. NTS? J

I miss homemade dinner cause everyday I'm eating outside in KL L

Stop looking at my stomach, this is non of my stomach's business, is the matter of my cloth cause I bend down abit, so automatically the cloth become like this :/

See, I tell you right, is the matter of the cloth, not my stomach J

And lets Rock. The. Night J

Cheers J

p/s-There are still some guys standing behind camera, I don't know why they're so shy to take pictures :/

I found this in my drawer and I miss my secondary school life so much :'(

I also found that each time I go back

I confirm will eat a lot one, I also don't know why

Maybe someone from my howntown is cursing me

Once I go back, I have to gain 5kgs =.="

Very black heart :/

I also curse the person fall down from the stairs and break his/her nose :P

Besides from these, I also found that my sister grow up a lot

And of course, she gets fatter a lot also

I don't know how she's going to keep fit in the future if she keeps on eating like this

I know I know, most of you reading this sure will say, "Ada abang, ada adik"

But that’s not the main point

The main point is the fatter she gets, the uglier she looks

So she have to keep fit :P

To all my friends,

Even though I always talk to you very loud

And sometimes I might have a very bad temper and scolded you all

But I don't really mean it

I just can't control my emotion

Yea la yea la, I got a very low EQ la

Angel also can have their own temper and emotion right? J

But always remember that I love you all ❤

Good Luck J