My Failure Life

I'm failure

Totally failure to the max

I think i ketagihan makanan already =(

Why i say i ketagihan, everytime at a particular time

My whole body will feel uneasy like something don't know mana wrong

I will try my best to get myself some food

Its just like when the penagih dadah didn't get the drugs

They will suffer like hell

Or like my father if didn't smoke

He can't berak, kastam tak bagi keluar =P

Same situation on me

But mine is all about FOOD

Just take yesterday as an example

I went to pasar malam and buy 2 keow teow goreng (different stall), 1 roti pita (daging ayam+lembu), 1 mee bakso

Then i tot its enough for me liao

I pun balik happily ;)

After i finished all the food

I pun watch drama

0.37254 seconds later, my racun ketagihan makanan start active liao

I feel like so uneasy but i try to control myself

But finally, i tak tahan kesengsaraan and go buy another 1 keow teow goreng and 2 honey chicken wings T_T

After makan, SELESANYA

As conclusion i had ate 3 keow teow goreng (from different stall), 1 mee bakso, 1 roti pita (daging ayam+lembu), 2 honey chicken wings FOR MY DINNER ONLY

I'M SO BROKE T_T

p/s-the mee bakso tak sedap~lain kali jangan beli *sorry mak cik, i bukan sengaja nak runtuhkan nama mee u, tapi mee u memang bukan sangat sedap saja* =P

Today pun not so good nia

For dinner i try to control myself coz i semalam makan so much for dinner

I pun eat a few piece of Gardenia bread with peanut butter and kaya

After that, the ketagihan start active liao and makes me try to get myself more foods

I try to control myself

But finally kalah juga

I go to the cupboard and took 2 packet of instant mee

After that i hold and look at it for2 minutes

Thinking whether want eat or not *just imagine the situation~LOL*

DIE LIAO LA THIS TIME..I'M AS MAO DUN AS A PENGUIN LIAO =(

Finally i eat juga T_T

2 packets of instant mee+bread for dinner *oh tuhanku~habis liao*

I think i'm going to name my future kids as

McD, Sushi King, KFC, Domino Pizza, Kenny Rogers Roasters, Subway.................

When only my diet plan will success la?????

I know many of my friends is laughing at me now

Saying me keep on repeat and repeat want keep fit but always eat =(

I'M MAO DUN LIKE A PENGUIN AGAIN LIAO T_T

BUT.................

DON'T EVER CABAR THOSE WHO WANT TO KEEP FIT

IMMA WORK MY ASS UP TO KEEP FIT START FROM TOMORROW

*i hope its works la~ang gong po pi~halleluyah*

❤❤❤❤❤

Why???

imma so jealous of those western people

why they naturally tall? why i'm not naturally tall?

why they have blonde hair? why i have black hair?

why their body shape so fit? why my body shape not so fit?

why they have colour eyes? why i don't have colour eyes?

why they have tall nose? why i have quite-not-tall nose?

why they have white-fair skin? why i have yellow-fair skin?

why they have curl and long and thick eyelashes? why i have not curl and not long and not thick eyelashes?

why they have perfect double eyelids? why i have not so perfect double eyelids?

why they have thick eyebrows? why i have not so thick eyebrows?

why they have white teeth? why i don't have white teeth?

why they was born as western people? why i was born as asian people?

why my ancestor didn't marry with western people so that i can have WESTERN-ASIAN-DNA?

WHY I SO MANY WHY?

❤ DO RE MI FA SO LA TI TO ❤

Underage boy's prostitution

i accidentally saw a video about underage boy's prostitution in Thailand,

most of them came from very poor family,

being a poor people is not an easy task,

i really understand that feelings,

i was sad when the moment they said;

"i have no money and i'm hungry"

"my brother is in jail, i need money to rescue him"

"i start my prostitution at my 11th"

I'M SO BROKE T_T

maybe many people will say;

"there are so many job, why they must choose this job? why they want to downgrade themselves?"

before this, please think;

1) they are so damn poor,

the basic cost of living, eating and accommodation, is already a big problem to them,

HOW CAN THEY WORK AND WAIT TILL 1 MONTH BEFORE THEY GET THEIR SALARY?

WHERE THEY SHOULD STAY? BELOW THE BRIDGE OR BESIDE THE DRAIN?

WHAT SHOULD THEY EAT? BREAD IN THE RUBBISH BIN OR DOG'S RICE?

2) will this world got so many good boss that will treat them well in their work,

CAN YOU MAKE SURE THE BOSS WON'T TORTURE THEM FOR THE REASON THAT THEY ARE POOR AND EVEN SOME OF THEM STILL UNDERAGE?

LIKE GIVING THEM A LITTLE BIT OF MONEY FOR A HEAVY JOB?

3) for those who were forced go into this job, they might having some serious problem,

for sure that they need a huge amount of money as soon as possible to settle it,

WILL THE BOSS SO FREAKIN GOOD BORROW THEM A HUGE AMOUNT OF MONEY FIRST?

AND DEDUCT IT FROM THEIR SALARY LATER?

if got such a good boss,

please recommend him/her to me.

in my opinion,

i don't think that they are bad,

they didn't rob or steal,

THEY JUST USE WHAT THEY HAVE TO EARN MONEY,

is that using own hands, legs, body and energy to earn money is wrong?

everyone got the desire of sex,

and prostitutes are just providing the services for them,

its just like a person who wants facial or hair treatment,

and the beautician provide them the treatment services,

its all about services,

again, they didn’t rob or steal,

they are just use what they have to provide services and earn the money.

some people might say,

they are the carrier of HIV,

or more worst, they are social scum,

but……..WHO ASK U GO FUCK THEM AND SLEEP WITH THEM IN THE FIRST PLACE?

no one wish to become PROSTITUTE,

but life forces them to do so,

they are born as a poor people,

they don't have choices.

TOUCH WOOD FIRST,

if my future life forces me to go into prostitution,

i would honestly say that;

"I WILL ACCEPT THIS JOB, BECAUSE I HAD NO MORE CHOICE. I NEED MONEY IN ORDER TO SURVIVE."

this is the video that i saw about the boy's prostitution

曾受伤过才会懂

时间过得很快

日历告诉我已经五月了

为什么我们最后见面那天

我要走的时候你没有拉住我

你还是不懂

离开的时候我想被挽留

我也很简单

一个拥抱就能代替所有

但是你就偏偏傻傻的看着我走

我不想跟你讲话

是怕离开后泪就会先流

朋友都一直问我值不值得

我明知道超级无敌霹雳不值得

但是曾受伤过才会懂

放不下就是放不下

爱得太真 太容易 让自己牺牲

太容易让自己沉沦

太容易 不顾一切 满是伤痕

我太笨 明知道你是错的人

明知道这不是缘分 但我还是奋不顾身

可能 在爱里面这样算笨

可能 永远没有所谓永恒

但是我 不愿放弃这里面一点点可能

宁愿笨也不想要悔恨

我并不是你想象中的那么坚强

爱情绝对可以打败我

如果有一天我没有提早回家

我可能还是那个一错再错的人

14/5/2011

yesterday (friday) again seven early eight early give Mr. X tarik go eat breakfast

after eat we take my mum's laptop pergi format

my mum's laptop totally habis gilerrr diduduki oleh virus =.=

slow until kura-kura pun boleh travel around the world liao

once i reach home i direct go tidur again

tidur till 3.30pm only wake up

my class already started 30 minutes

sorry teacher.......i promise that i will read 1 page of Jane Eyre's book ;)

yesterday punya yesterday (thursday) after law class

MJ, Zoe, Christopher and me had our lunch at Babi Comel Plaza (Bar-BQ Plaza) ;)

this is the first time I went there *I know I very kampung* =P

after that we pergi watch "Something Borrowed" kat Times Square's cinema

DON'T EVER CURANG SAMA TUNANG ORANG LAIN ESPEACIALLY TUNANG KAWAN BAIK

just now I makan terlalu kenyang nothing do go Selayang Capital jalan-jalan just want to see bila dia mau bankrap

why I say that, I don't think there is more than 50 customers in this quite big geh mall

and hor masa balik I pun gatal tangan gatal kaki drive car masuk this mall punya parking building

got several floor geh and the top floor is terdedah to langit punya

i agak-agak the whole parking building tarak more than 20 cars =.=

and hor, this place si beh geli lo

serupa 100% in those movie punya

maybe suddenly got hantu keluar gigit you

or maybe suddenly got 3 pekerja asing chase and rape you

just read this two sheet of answer paper

laugh till I sakit perut..Fuck My Laugh!!! =D

my parents ngam ngam come back from my hometown, Teluk Intan

my grandmother cook some food for me and ask them to bring it to me

sooooooo touch ;)

OMG~~~I CAN'T STOP MY SALIVA

Habis crapping

Buh bye ❤

11/5/2011

today as usual i woke up 1 hour 30 minutes earlier to prepare myself untuk pergi college

and as usual juga i will choose to sit infront of mat salleh in the train *GATAL TO THE MAX* ;)

but i found that my skin more fair than most of the mat salleh *BANGGA TO THE MAX* ;)

i also found that it's hard to find a mat salleh man without beard

after several station, a cute little boy come and sit beside me

HE IS REALLY CUTE

i don't know why he always look at me~LOL

count count the day

i already a few weeks didn't wear my lens

LAZY FATTY BUM BUM

so, today i started to wear them back

then i went to the shop that i always went to buy food

one of the guys there talk to me;

guy: wah~hari ni tak pakai cermin mata looks hot again ah

me: hello, i'm hot everyday la

guy: haha~perasan..looks hotter without cermin mata ma

me: oh~means that i tak hot la masa pakai spec?

guy: masa u pakai cermin mata looks like good study boy, masa tak pakai looks like wild hot boy

me: *bangga gilerrrr* ;)

actually this is not the 1st time people saying me looks different with and without spec

btw, i'm not ugly sudah la~hahahahaha

recently i got a new hobby, naked kat rumah~hahahahaha =)

sometimes i buka semua sampai bogel~LOL

1 word to describe, COMFORTABLE ;)

the weather now fucking freakin hot like babi kena bakar dalam microwave

why har?????

OYS language for naked body,

Belum cuba belum tau,

Sudah cuba hari-hari mau.

*P/S-i tak pakai seluar while typing this =)

i love to bogel~but i tak suka rugby =P

My Life

Another crazy day

Today Mr. X seven early eight early phone me ask me wake up

For........................................teman him eat breakfast~LOL

My eyes macam kena glue tak boleh buka

But terpaksa bangun juga

After eat breakfast

Mr. X bring me to his home

I want take back my hardisk yang tertinggal kat rumah dia

Why I tertinggal there, that day he very celaka-ly purposely keep it

Because he want curi something that I tak mau give him

Why I tak mau give him, because that day he eat all my food

Selepas don't know how many hours kat rumah dia

I RAYU him bring me balik rumah

Why I kena RAYU him, because he very kuai lan-ly don't want fetch me back

Then I pun start bla bla bla with him

Finally he sanggup bring me go makan lunch then go back

V I C T O R Y ;)

Sudah reach home masih can't rest

Kena clean up home lagi

Aduhhhhhhhh~cleaning a rumah 2 tingkat memang can patahkan my bone =(

I have to spend freaking 2 hours 32 minutes to clean home

After that I finally can really sit down and drink a cup of Ribena Ais OYS =)

Another happy moment

Tonight after I gao dim my dinner

Tiba-tiba my cousin bawa pizza and garlic bread kasi me eat pula

SYOKKKKK GILERRRRR

I settle it all by myself ;)

What stick at my mind now?

Tomorrow having presentation AGAIN >.<

ADUHHHHH~ ~ ~ ~ ~

❤ SAYONARA ❤

8/5/2011的坏人

以前我的好友Y小姐时常在我面前唱方炯镔的“坏人”

《容忍的人其实并不笨 只是宁可对自己残忍》

她最爱唱这句

每次当她唱这句的时候我总是会骂她

我都会说:

“为什么我们要容忍？

明知道不是自己的错却要容忍

那才是正真的笨

还有宁愿对自己残忍的人更是笨到无可救药”

其实那时候我对这首歌根本不是很熟

刚刚我就突然跑去找这首歌来听

很认真的去明白这首歌的意思

听到一半

我莫名其妙得哭了起来

来骂回我吧Y小姐

《也许用伤害结束爱才更动人》

也许有伤害的爱情

才能称上“伟大”

《容忍的人其实并不笨 只是宁可对自己残忍》

有时候

对着自己喜欢的人

明知道对方是错的

心里虽然真的不好受

但是思念更加得伤人

所以到最后都会尝试去原谅

所谓的 《宁可对自己残忍》

《分得够狠你才有借口转身 宁愿爱一点不剩 也不忍看恋人爱成路人》

分手时候的无理取闹

或许是给你的一个转身的借口

也是给自己一个好过一点的机会

最起码和你分得够狠的时候

这点痛我还能忍

但是我不忍心看到自己爱你爱到变成陌生的路人