24/5/2012

Today is the day for my Business Studies Paper 2 examination

Yesterday whole night I didn't sleep

Ok, most of you sure will think that I burned midnight oil and studied like hell

But the answer is I didn't study at all coz I'm watching Taiwan variety shows until 4.30a.m.  and then only start pick up the books and study until 6.00a.m.

Hahahahahahahaha..I know this is very terrible

While the others are studying, I'm watching shows and only studied for 1 hour 30 minutes :P

Cannot blame me leh, blame the variety shows why they're so interesting until I can't get my ass off from the computer :P

But in today's exam, I'm quite satisfy

QUITE only, not VERY

I know that if I'm working my ass up to study instead of watching something that is not related to the exam, I can do even better

But I already did my best to stop watching those shows at 4.30a.m. and pick up books to study

That's the best I can do..hahahahahahahahaha :P

I already decided that I'm not going to study oversea even though this is my biggest dream ever

I always wanted to study in a foreign country where I'm surrounded by a lot of peoples from the other country, just like in those dramas

But reality is always a reality

First of all, I have my own house here and if I'm going to study abroad, I might need to rent a room or maybe share the room with a roommate

This is definitely not what I want because if I'm sharing a room with others, I will totally lose my private life and everything that I do will be seen by the roommate.

For example, if I want to sleep early and the roommate doesn't want to sleep that early, then this might disturb me sleeping coz I prefer to sleep with the lights off.

Besides, when I want to watch porn and masturbate, it will be very troublesome for me because the roommate is there. I might have to take my laptop into the toilet and this will definitely spoil my mood

Unless my roommate is gay then he might gives me a blowjob or having sex with me then its different story la..hahahahahahaha :D

I will have to kinda "rely" on the house owner in which I will totally lose my freedom

I like to sing and shout in home and I will definitely can't do these there

And I also can't bring friends home whenever I like

The other thing is I have my own car here and I can travel wherever and whenever I like

If I'm studying oversea, for sure I can't bring my car together, so I have to rely on public transportation which is also very troublesome for me because I dislike waiting

And there's limitation on the time and location that I can to travel because public transportation will not cover all places and will not available for me 24/7

Money is also a problem for me as the currencies are different

My friend who did went to oversea and study told me that I need to prepare at least RM5k per month for daily expenses excludes rent

RM5k per month is already enough for me to enjoy my life as a little prince in here

If I'm can live freely like a little prince in my own country, what for I want to suffer myself in foreign country?

And of course the someone of mine is still staying here, so I'm not willing to go yet ❤

However, going to oversea and live there is always my dream

But I'm not going to make it real during my study time

I will acchieve this step by step

I have to get my law degree first

And then I will start working and keeping money

If I got enough money and experiences in my career

I can easily apply to work in oversea and hence stay there

By this, I will not suffer that much

Because as a lawyer, my salary will not low

I can provide a better life for myself there.

Oh yea, forget to mention that my keep fit plan is officially started AGAIN by today

I know many of you had listen to this for like 934893487 times

Actually I do lose some weight a few weeks ago

But I gain back those weight fml :'(

See laaaa, I cannot let myself to relax even a bit

If I do, I will gain back all those weight that I lost easily

Idk why but this is not fair coz some peoples eat a lot like gorilla everyday

And yet they are still good in shape

But I'm totally different, I eat a little bit extra and then the weight will back to visit me again :'(
I guess I have to work real hard to slim down :(

Anyway, Good Luck :)

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17/5/2012

Its 17 May 2012 already

Which means that I'm officially 19 years and 1 month old

Fuck the world, how come the time can pass so fast one

I really can't believe 1 month passed by like that only

It just like eating, sleeping, shitting and the time gone :/

And I really can't and don't want to imagine that 11 months more I'm going to be 20 years old wtf!!! :'(

Last time when I'm still below 18y/o and still living in my hometown and still got a little bit orang kampung minded

I used to think that education is everything in our life if we want to success

After kintergarden we must go to primary school and then secondary school

And we must get a straight A's in SPM and after that, we have to get our ass up IMMEDIATELY and find a college or university and continue our tertiary education

The battle is still haven't ended yet, we have to work really hard and go to oversea and continue study

Then we must study hard in oversea and get a first class results

Finally graduated and IMMEDIATELY get a white collar job and earn a lot of money

All these have to be in continue form, cannot stop, 1 year also cannot!!!

This is what I used to think before this

But when I came to KL last year, I saw a lot of new things that I will never experience in my hometown

I started to ask myself, if I do what I used to think, doesn't that will make me very tired?

Doesn't that will make me lose the opportunities to enjoy my young times, my teenager times?

And the answer that I give myself is a YES!!!

I started to realise that in order to success in life, there's not a MUST to only rely on education

Certain people can still success and earn a lot of money without education but of course they need opportunities and talents.

When the other people is enjoying with their friends outside there, I'm still facing the books and study for the exam in order to get the best certificate in education

When the other people is enjoying with their love, I'm still giving the same bullshit reason that I have to concentrate on study and only will start a relationship after I had success

I started to realise that when the time had passed, it won't come back

When I'm 30y/o, I won't enjoy as crazy as I will when I'm 18y/o

But I can still manage to study what I can study when I'm 18y/o in the age of 30y/o

My lecturer once told me,

Why we have to rush rush and rush until we lose a lot of beautiful things?

Why don't we slow down our steps and enjoy as much as possible when we're still young?

Most Asian, especially Chinese, they're very kia su (scare to lose)

They like to do anything and everything in one time

I admit that I'm one of them too BUT only in previous, not now.

Going to UK and study is always my dream

But I have to bow to the reality that its not easy to get it

Its need a solid determination which I think I don't have because I still want to enjoy my young times

And its very expensive to go there too

One of my friend who studied in UK told me that he needs 1k pound per month for daily expenses only and this still haven’t includes the rent

This means that I need at least RM5k per month in order to survive in UK

I know most of people will said;

"There's a thing called scholarship and you can work part-time there"

I said;

"I still want to enjoy teenager times and I don't have that much time to study everyday. I don't want to rush like hell when at the end I'm still reaching the same destination."

I know its kinda stupid to think like this but I'm sure that I will not be happy if I wasted my young times just on education

So I decide that I will still study but not as hardcore as I used to be last time

I will slow down my steps and perhaps take a short break from study

Then go to work and expand my social circle and enjoy my times with friends

And continue to study when I feel that its time for me to pick the books up again

I only young once, when the time had gone, it won't come back.

Good luck ❤

2/5/2012

Harlooooo, long time no see
I had been stopped posting blog for more then 1 month

Because a lot of things happen recently until I also don't know what actually is happening

But one of it is my exam is coming soon fuck the world

And its on next Wednesday fuck the world again

My preparation for the exam is quite slow

Like a tortoise :'(

Last time I used to say I want to study 1 or 2 hours per day but its failed

I have to admit that I'm a lazy bum bum that like to delay things

I also don't know why >.<

This exam will last for 1 month and 5 days

Which means that after this 1 month and 5 days

I'm going to be freeeeeee..yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!

And I will have a 3 months holiday before my degree starts..yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!

But actually I have an idea in my mind that I would like to take a 1 year break before I start my 3 years degree

Coz I'm really tired of study

After kintergarden I direct goes to primary school and then secondary school

My SPM examination ended on December 2010

Then I started my A-Level in January 2011

Which means that I only take a break less than 1 month

I'm getting tired

I know most of the peoples who know me will say, "WTF?!!! You doesn't really go to class everyday and you said you're tired of study"

Ok, I can't deny this and I also know about this

But I'm really tired of study

No motivation at all

Perhaps maybe I will use this 1 year break go out working and know more friends without any study pressures

And relax myself

I know this is kinda stupid

My friend had scolded me on this too

But………..I don't know laaaaaaa

After the 3 months holiday only decide how :)

When a person getting older, automatically their stamina will decreasing like aeroplane tarak minyak and drop into the sea

Last time when I'm younger I can study at least 8-10 chapters  in a day

Sometimes more than that

But now, cannot ady

The most is up to 3 chapters

I don't know whether because I'm getting older or I lost my motivation on study

Seriously………I DON'T KNOW :'(

Harrrr??? What??? How old am I???

Oh, I'm in sweet 19y/o

What do you mean by WTF?!!! You're only 19y/o and you say that you're getting old

Hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

But last year I used to be sweet 18y/o but now I'm sweet 19y/o

Older also what :P

Ok, I'm going to stop here

Remember to follow my blog eventhough I'm not updating it as frequent as I used to be last time

Coz I'm getting older and my stamina is decreasing :P

Good luck ❤