I'm scare of losing somebody

Everyone that read this for a reason, that is to busy body about my love life

Ok laaa, I admit that I'm also very busy body about other's love life

When I meet with a friend that 2 thousand years no meet already, the first thing I ask is "Eh, got boyfriend/girlfriend ah?"

But their answer always make me dissapointed, with a "YES" and a happy smile face

Yea, I'm jealous they can find a companion and I'm still forever alone L

Ok, back to the topic

I don't know why I sometimes I got kind of lonely and sad feeling

When I suddenly wake up in the middle of night then I looked around my surrounding, which normally is dark unless I forget to switch off the lights, then I will feel very lonely and sad, sometimes I cried :'(

Or………………

I'm walking to a place, when I reach a particular place or see a particular thing, I will feel the loneliness and sadness also

Or………………

Even when I'm doing nothing, these feeling come automatically

I hate this feeling,this feeling, this feeling……………….. :'(

What do you mean by, OMG?!!! You cried because of this small thing??? Are you a guy???

A guy cannot cry is it? A guy cannot have their own emotion is it?

If your answer is a yes, then ask God why created tear ducts inside guy's eyes.

AND…………..FUCK YOU!!!

Just now when I'm having my nice nap because recently I don't have enough sleep

Seriously lack of sleep until to the max

So when I wake up, I look at my room

I don't know why I feel extra sad and extra lonely

Perhaps have the feeling of crying too :'(

Then I told my crazy bitchy friends about this

One of them told me this is a natural phenomena when you're loving someone but the someone is not yours

So you will feel unsecure and scare will lose that person

What she say is so damn fucking true!!!

Yea, I'm scare of losing someone that are not belong to me :'(

She also experienced this when her boyfriend is not with her

But she's a lot better than me lo

At least she has a lover but I don't have leh :'(

At least when she's sad or lonely she can tell her boyfriend and I'm pretty sure her boyfriend will comfort her

But what I can do is just stare at the wall and thinking how to commit suicide if I can't find a companion :'(

 I've came with 2 ways to commit suicide and these confirm won't make me look so ugly when I die and its painless.

1) Sleep inside car

Dress nicely, open the air-cond and close all the window and sleep inside it

2) Buy some injection stuff from doctor

Dress nicely of course, then inject the medicine into body

p/s-If you going to do this, don't tell anyone that you learnt it from here.

One of my ji mui always tell me that the someone sure will come one

But just the matter of time only

I don't think so lo

I think my someone had being bang by monorail or lrt or car when on the way coming to find me

If not why so long already still haven't appear???

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Choi choi choi

Just joking laaaaaa..LOL

To my future's someone,

If you see this, just ignore it, I love you so much and you know it,

I know you're not being bang by monorail or lrt or car coz if you really bang by those, you will not able to see this also =P

Eh, just joking har

Don't bang my someone har I tell you

If not I'm going to burn your office

LOL

At first I think that I'm going to write a sad and sentimental post about this topic

But I don't know what's wrong with me and end up this post like this =.="

Oi, by the way I'm still very serious with my tittle above

I'm scare of losing someeeeebodieeeeeeee :'(

Really scare………………………………

I miss you so badly, pls come to me now :'(